So what is it about us that makes us completely uncomfortable in our own skin? What is it that drives us to feel not skinny enough when we are definitely not overweight and yet we feel the same way when we are overweight? Why do we continue to beat ourselves up? It's all a harsh cycle that we seem to continue on without resolve.
Since starting the diet process again, I'm celebrating small victories like my shorts from last summer buttoning without cutting off circulation. They don't look cute on me yet, but at least they button now. I tried them on before our trip to the keys and they wouldn't button! So yay me. But still this morning I'm looking at old pictures of when I thought I was "fat". This is me during my "trying to find myself again" phase while going through divorce. My stomach full of ulcers and not able to keep much food down... but I still thought I was heavy. I WISH I had that body again..
Yeah, it's always that same mindset with me... not appreciating what I look like then looking back when I'm larger and thinking I was an idiot. I'm tired of being that idiot. So, as week 3 of the new diet slowly comes to a close, I am going to continue to celebrate the little things and remind myself that I only have control of today. Today will be a good day. I'll worry about tomorrow when I get there.
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